The lost philocalist: A LETTER To AMI's EX.

The lost philocalist: A LETTER To AMI's EX.:   Dear P, You hold a special place in my heart (and you know that well). You were a good man. I wanted to confess something by writing this ...

A LETTER To AMI's EX.

 Dear P,

You hold a special place in my heart (and you know that well). You were a good man. I wanted to confess something by writing this to you, that I really do miss you P. I know that now, you are with someone else, but that doesn't really stops me from missing "US", the time that we spent and I know neither would have you forgotten it. I could still feel the first time you holded my hand and just put it on your forehead, so nervous were you. The time you first hugged me at 4 :00 in the morning, bidding me a bye with that big chocolate and then, you left for your college to the other city and how bad i used to feel then.

 The talks we used to had, the way you trusted me, the way we added each other's name to our own names, the way you were such a loyal man to me, you know I could still bet with people that, P is a man who would forever stay loyal to  only one person ,to the one with whomsoever he maybe with. p, I never had to ask you out for anything, you always made me feel the things at their best, Being busy with anything, you used to make time for me, be it with friends, you used to miss me even being with them, that was what love was all about for us, I know you have moved on in life, and I am happy for you cause I know those were the tough times for both of us, we had.

You know, I always cherish the moments we spent, the most of the foodie times we had, the way you loved me, the way we felt at peace by being surrounded by silence all over, that was so much more  being said in the unsaid, the peace we felt, by sitting beside each other, hands in hands.

You know P, I kind of have moved on in life, but I do miss you, I don't know why, but you know P, having given chance to a men or two, I ended up crying & getting hurt for the little expectancies in my mind, just missing the way you treated me, the way you cared, the way you pleased me everytime, the way we used to fight, the way our mood got distorted, the way you gave me all your attention, the way you made me feel 11/10, the way you called me to be the most beautiful girl to be in your life. I miss it all and most of all, I MISS YOU SO MUCH P..that it sometimes makes me cry. Everything was good until the circumstances turned out to be worst. Maybe that we weren't meant to be. I hope you'd get to read this someday and I know you'd  be able to make it out. I wish the best for you P, STAY HAPPY and may you achieve lots and lots of success.

YOU know P, hearing that now you got someone in your life, made me cry, I GUESS somewhere  I was happy for you that you finally moved on from me,  but thinking of the conversations you guys must be having made me remember, the one's we had, the little things and gestures you used to compliment with, are now her's, made me cry. But nevermind, ITS JUST AN EMOTIONAL STATE OF BEING HUMAN. Wishing all the good luck to you guys.

Idk why, but for now, the things feel as if no one, I say no one could love me the way you did, and that makes me miss you more, maybe that now I am not willing to get indulged into such things cause, now I don't want to be loved any less the way you did, anymore by anyone, maybe this isn't the time for me. But, I genuinely wish the best for you.

 KEEP STAYING HAPPY P. You're a good man, who always intended for pure love above all.

-Your's once loved,

AMI.